FUCK THE WORLD: October 2006

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

well all i can say i m lost or i can't even think at all.. wtf

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i would transtlate the two post i wrote in malay..

wednesday, oct 18

today is the day that i would not forget, cause i feel that there is 2 ladys i love and like in this world.. but i feel that the second lady don't have feelings me. i feel that i just plain stupid or not needed in this world.. well watever it is i would respect her decision or wats she wants..
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monday, 23 oct

i feel so blind for wasting my fucking time on waiting for you.. and you have been playing my heart.. well wat a waste..

well watever happens just let it be..
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and here's today one..

the reason why i blog in malay is because i feel that i can relate my feeling better and not cause any misunderstanding.. i don't want things to be like wat happen after the 27 july.. so i would rather hurt myself than others.. i can't effort our friendship to end just because of wat i wrote.. so hope you guys understand if i blog in malay.. but i guess i won't tho..

shafik

Monday, October 23, 2006

well i just got one thing to say!!!

saya rasa saya sangat buta untuk tunguh kan kamu.. dan kamu bermain degan h*** saya.. wat a waste..

well apa yang terjadi saya akan biarkan..

that all.. dan saya ucapkan kepada semua mulismat SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

SHAFIK!!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

harlow!!!!!

the past few days i have been doing lots of stupid stuff and i DYE MY HAIR. =)

but i have to dye it back to black due to the area 20 atc.. must be an example of a good CI. what a waste..

today i finally when out with my long lost buddy in np.. HANLONG!! my gay buddy since sec3.. lol. kidding . just that we do wat ever each other does.. sound gay?? really had fun time with him.. today also met up with xt, fishy, rafael, and my gay buddy "hanlong" . the three guy went to the park first we play those stupid thingy. don't know wat that thing call. then i found a stick and start whacking hanlong with it.. man damn funny he shout like girls and raf was just sitting there laughing or don't know do wat.. haha.. later the women join us and we started throwing stones at each other and like wise i'm always the victim. hanlong, fishy and ma'am were like throwing at me.. but overall i had fun.. thanks ppl for today..

things that happen the past few days!

i have already moved back home at hougang! it's suckss.. i feel like killing that bastard(dad)..
i bought a fucking nice baju kurung
rafael got into cibtc. i'm so happy for him.. i respect him for waiting so long, 1 long fucking year leh.. but bro i will pary that nothing happen along the way!!
my mum is getting sick.. i don't wat anything to happen to her.. if there were to be anything i won't forgive myself..
i have to decide whether i want to take o's or remain in the most boring school ITE..
my life have been super messy.. i don't know wat to do??
last one i don't feel like saying.. ppl might get the wrong idea..

well thats all i got for now.. tata..

shafik aka the one..

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

ok today i shall blog in malay.. so if don't understand fuck it.. haha. nah just ask me la..ok but if your understand mine is fuck up malay.. sorry..

hari adalah hari yang saya tak akan lupa.
kerana saya rasa ada dua orang wanita yang i sayang.. tetapi i rasa mereka tak da rasa kepada saya.. sigh.. macam i orang bodoh atau orang yang tak guna kepada dunia ini.. tapi saya akan hormatkan apa yang mereka nak.. ok this is so MAT.. HAHA

AT LAST I GOT THE FEELING OUT.. haha

ask me if you want to know..

shafik (mat)

Monday, October 09, 2006

So lately, I've been wonderin

Who will be there to take my place

When I'm gone, you'll need love

To light the shadows on your face

If a great wave should fall

It would fall upon us all

And between the sand and stone

Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]

If I could,

then I would

I'll go wherever you will go

Way up high or down low

I'llgo wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out

The way to make itback someday

To watch you,to guide you

Through the darkest of yourdaysIf

a great wave should fallIt would fall upon us all

Well I hopethere's someone out there

Who can bring me back toyou

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart

Runaway with myhope

Runaway with my love

I know now,

just quite how

My life andlove might still go on

In your heart and your mindI'll stay with you forall of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time

I'll gowherever you will go

If I could make you mine

I'll go wherever you willgo

haha.. i'm stuck with this song.. hehe..

by the way the past few days i have been ok la.. things in wols seem to die.. want to know ask me.. i don't wish to write about this on my fucking blog.. friends around me seems like fading away.. y?? what i did wrong to deserve this treatmeant? maybe i suck i guess!

thanks for those ppl whom belive in me all this while.. you know who r you.. ya.

hari raya is coming soon and my family hardly done anything. things like bake cake and cookies plus clean the bloody house..

haiz.. later work.. ok la thats all i got to say..

shafik hunk

Monday, October 02, 2006

wah at last i m blogging..haha.. ok la many things have happen that i can't even blog.. plus no com la..

hmm let me start with my life,
i'm doing pretty well. getting more hunk=)
i m lost, as in i don't know wat i m doing at all..
i feel i m leading my father footsteps and i going to be a failure like him. sigh
plus currently i have lost faith in god,cause 19 years my mum have suffer and nothing has change.. he has not help us to a better life but worst??why my family.. and y must we suffer with my dad?? u see if ur in my shoes u will understand why i lost faith in god.. but where is him when i need him? ya that wat i feel la..
after yesterday i talk to you i realise that you have no specail feeling for me.. it is ok in the river there is many fishes..

updated abt my family!

my mum just open a company.. a karang guni.. so i m helping out.. =)
people may think that it's a dirty jod but it make easy money.. haha
wat to do i got money face wat!! haha kidding..

my mum is still fighting out with my dad in court.. but i still don't know why my mum wants to forgive him??
does she has the feeling for him?? after wat he did to her for 19 fucking long years??
well that he problem i don't give a fuck anymore.. ya

wat else?? ya i was blogging and i saw ppl wishing chloe happy birthday.. so HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHLOE.. although i don't really know you.. but since you tagg my blog i shall wish you then.. ya your weird leh?? see me and rafael you like see ghost.. haha..

ok la i m fucking tired la wanna sleep and go work later so good nitez!

shafik
the hunk