Monday, January 22, 2007

CONFUSE,SAD AND LONELY!

THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY ABT MY FEELINGS.. Y THE PPL I LOVE BEHAVE THIS WAY??

PLS GIVE ME A CHANCE!

SHAFIK

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

SAD BASTARD!


after watching the movie coach carther,it got me think alot.. abt wat i will be when i'm big. not as in size but age~hahah! and thing like me being a failure in life like that bastard(dad).. the more i don't want to be like him i will tend to be like him.. fuck sia! haiz.. i eventually cried in my room once i reach home.. i broke too tears! i have not cried for a long time man.. the last time i cried was 27/07/06! it's like man.. i was really ~EMO~! that show really got me thinking and crying.. i msg two ppl abt it.. and i think wat they say is very true.. if i don't want to be like him, i've to work hard as not to like him.. thks

but today i got another thinking.. i'm confuesed!!

i don't know what i'm feeling.. arh i'm just confuse!

maybe love sick?! hhehehe

or even missing someone??

or even abt myself??

i don't.. but what do u think?


well that's all shafik got for u all..

so shafik out!

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

A Moment Like This

i wish i will have this moment like this.. y i say that is cause i have always bee the target of them since i came back as a CI.. i want to have the moment of not being shot at or being able to lead and be like a ci.. not a stupid nco or cadet.. and wat personal life i have outside it got nothing to np. as long i'm able to draw a line between np and outside lfe.. the blacks will never leave me and bro alnoe.. we are like the target brothers.. you not happy shoot us?? fuck u understand.. i was not born to be your target man BLACKIES!

funking pek cek..

shafik

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Monday, January 08, 2007

hey it's been a long time since i blog abt my feelings.. haiz
today i would say that i have lots of things to let go.. so bare with me..
things that have been running through such as, why am i even a ci?? and why must my stupid mouth say things that make two ppl shock!!
haiz.. when i come to a thinking that whether i'm a usefull ci it always give me that feeling i'm not needed in the unit or even in the core.. having my style of leadership it's simple many ppl can learnt.. so it is sad for me too see that my fucking unit not giving me task to do at all.. i'm only in charge of the sec3.. and i don't even have to do a single shit abt it.. i don't even have to plan for their NCO course, jnoc course, to build their leadership in them and lots of more things.. haiz wat the purpose of putting me in-charge.. the reason why i'm alway not wanting to help hq is because i'm afraid of being laugh at.. i told izwan(area 5 ci and squadmate) before that if i go for npdp i scared that the ppl there would laugh at me due to the image of me in ci course.. they would have the thought that " wah shafik want to join npdp huh? his drills suck! and he still want to join" haiz that the reason y i'm always not wanting to help in hq.. i don't feeling like talking abt this already.. anyway IZWAN thks for listening to me and encouraging me to go npdp.. and thks bros for listening to me too..
yesterday i told someone abt the way i felt for her.. i mean i was just beeing honest and open abt it, i really didn't mean to make u feel shock. like wat i told u this is one of the reason y i choose not to tell u.. i'm scared our friendship would end here.. even tho we know each other for sometime only.. i guess the only thing i can do now is just shut my mouth and not say a thing.. well i' sorry to make u feel ths way and spoling ur day.. so sorry..


well tHAT all the big guy have to say..

shafik!

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