FUCK THE WORLD

hey!

there's many things i have to say..

1. obbd( outward bound brunei)
2. things that have been running my mind..

OBBD

wah.. this is the toughest course i have ever been too..
life was totally different..i hardly have anyone to talk or crap with.. so i can say i was a loner..
so the first three days i was really very ON in doing things.. volunter in doing stuff and being the leader of the group for the first day.. so yeah.. but after a week i began to slack.. cause my group member are taking advantage of me. as in asking me to do stuff for them and not volunteering at all.. then i was really piss off and during the debrief i shoot at all of them.. hah. the feling was fucking shiok.. haha.. i won't say all only 2 singaporeans and most of the bruneians.. fyi i have 15 ppl in my group..8 s'pore and 7 brunie..

so then come to tracking!

man i cry while making my where to the final check point..
i cry not cause i m tired i cry due to i had fever abt 38.5. and i just had too break down.. i can't even lift my bag pack.. my whole body were jelly.. so my insturctor told me to carry on and not give up just like that.. so i really tried my best to move on till we reach the final checkpoint.. when we reach theri knock-out.. man felt like shit..

after hiking we had kyaking then had abselling.. wah that one my balls when up my throat.. i was freaking scared.. but made it tho..

oh then we had to run 7km.. fuck. i hate running and i still have to run.. i manage to complete it less than 40 mins.. fucking cool i didn't even stop at all..

well i really miss there.. all the ppl there and my best instructor RAFFI!!

The second part..

well things have been running in mind..

i feel so useless.. it's sad too see myself no achieving in many things i have been doing..
i don't know how to explain la.. if you want to know ask me la..

plus i'm scared that my buddy change to be a diffre person person.. i understand you will change but not that much.. lets hope you don't change and be your old self..


well i fucking piss with lots of ppl for backstabbing me la so yeah don't really wanna talk..


bb

shafik

posted by shafik @ 6:39 PM